puella magi madoka magica the movie: rebellion
so i finally watched the last movie. it was pretty amazing. i really liked it. i won’t go into all the theories and speculations of it all. there’s a lot floating around and it’s all really thought-provoking stuff. personal opinion though, loving homura even more now XD
but what really really got to me was this scene, when homura was turning herself into a witch, where she was on the ground in despair, and there were other homuras standing tall looking down at her, and then another homura slammed her fist down crushing herself. this scene that could go on forever where there’s just a bigger and bigger version of yourself always trying to crush the emotions of yourself.
it really seemed to put a visual representation of how my depression can be sometimes.
it’s this big engulfing thing and when you think you’re at the brink, more of it just keeps engulfing you and there’s just more and more and more and you’re smaller and smaller but your despair just gets bigger and bigger. it’s not really an emotion sometimes; more like a lack of it. but that emptiness grows and grows and engulfs what you thought was all you could take.
anyway, i just thought that was interesting, because i’ve never been able to really explain how my depression feels, and then all of a sudden here’s this imagery that kinda gets the gist of it.